So last night I posted about seeking and finding God in the grocery store, ironically on the creamer aisle.
In my continued conversation with God over the past twenty-four hours, I've found myself asking Him, "Where have you been? Why have I felt alone? Where are my reassurances? Where is your gentle nudge?"
And this morning in the middle of Bible study, He said plain as day to me, "Where have you been?"
Oh, so true.
Where have I been lately?
Not in His word like I say I want to be.
Not disciplined with my time the way I know I can be.
Not seeking Him.
It was like last night I was fed up because He hadn't placed His reassuring hand on my shoulder in a while, and I wanted to know where He'd been. Yet in His beautiful grace, all He could say to me last night was, I love you.
But today He has challenged me.
Where have you been?
I have not been seeking Him daily.
I have not placed Him first in my day and in my time.
And I have the audacity to ask Him where He's been.
So I'm done.
I'm done expecting Him to show up when I can't get out of bed. I'm making my commitment to be intentional with my time. Intentional with my priorities. I'm placing Him first again. I know that He'll meet me wherever I am, but I want to meet Him, too.
That means it's bedtime for me. But for you, I have to share something that will undoubtedly stream tears down your face.
I just re-read it for a good cry.
Last night Brian and I started talking about great blogs, and Kelle Hampton's is one of the best I've ever read. Her words are beautiful and her pictures speak volumes.
She has two little girls. One of her girls, Nella, was born with Down Syndrome. The story of Nella's birth brought Brian and I both to tears last night.
Take a few moments. Escape from your world. And read one of the most beautiful stories I have ever read. Please, Please, Please. Read it. And be blessed.
.....day 116 of a year of writing.....