It turns out that raising a daughter will be more than I signed up for. True story.
She's 6, and she's an emotional basket case. I mean, we're at the beginning stages people. Part of me wonders if I'm making the best choices for her. I know that our ultimate job as parents is to raise our children so that one day that don't need us anymore. It's an 18 year weaning process.
There is a fine line between the helicopter parent and the healthy parent. I don't want to be the helicopter parent. I want her to make her own decisions (when it's appropriate for her to do so), I want her to be full of joy and Christ's love, and I want her to know how much we love her.
She is strong willed and stubborn very much like both of her parents. There are days that I feel like I only see her strong willed, stubborn nature, and not her sweet spirit. I'm worried about the things she may or may not be learning on the playground.
I watch her light up when we do things to make her feel special. I showed up for lunch at her school today, and she grinned from ear to ear. We talked and shared our lunches, and it was sweet.
There are days that I wonder if I'm making the right choices about her education, but I honestly don't know if I can realistically homeschool while running our business. I've got it down to where I work 20 hours a week max. I throw the idea around in my head from time to time wondering if I could really do it.....wondering if it would really be the best thing for her.
Do I want to do it because I want her here and I miss her? Or do I want to do it because I think it would be the best thing for her? I honestly don't know.
Our situation is unique. There is no doubt about that. If I were a stay at home mom, I think maybe I would do it. But I'm not. Our entire income rides on our Scentsy family business, and considering the hours I work a week, that's not too bad of a deal.
I don't know. I don't know if I have answers or not. I'm simply toying with the idea (I really always have toyed with the idea). I don't want to do anything because it's what someone else thinks is right. I want to do things that I know are right in my soul. I'm not positive public school is it. I'm not sure if homeschool is the answer either.
I spent 2 hours today at her school making copies. I think it would have taken me 3 hours to properly homeschool her today. It's an interesting thought.
I love Addy's school and her teacher, but I just want to make sure that public education is the right choice for her. Sorry for the ramblings tonight. It's just what my brain is thinking about.
Anyone else ever play with the idea of homeschooling? If so, what are your reasons for considering it? I'm just curious.